But I'm not. I got my Jesse right next to me. HE'S the only other spirit in here. And he's gonna protect me. He won't ever abandon me or hurt me. I love him SO much, I really wish he was actually here, so that I could fall asleep safely in his arms. But the very next best thing is when I can comfortably call him when I'm feeling my most afraid. There was no 2nd thought as to who I was gonna call when I started freaking out. The only time I had a 2nd thought was after the 2nd or 3rd ring when I was like "It's late, I shouldn't disturb my sweetie" but right after that thought, he picked up the phone.
We talked for a good hour, and he was here for me calming me down with his soothing voice. He even got me laughing at one point, and we shared some great, sexy thoughts. I feel like I can tell him ALL my thoughts.
HE LET ME BRING THE PHONE WITH ME WHILE I WENT TO THE BATHROOM JUST SO I WOULDN'T BE AFARID. Now that's love. <3
It's 3:17 AM, Dec 17th. In about 10-11 days, my sweetie will be here with me.
I might just get under my blankets now and try to sleep.
Goodnight, Jesse... you were the last thought before I fell asleep.
<3 Vanessa
p.s babe.. scroll all the way down to the bottom of the page. I love you.
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