I miss Jesse, so much. =( We barely get to talk now cuz we're both so busy, and it's just hard since he lives all the way in Kansas. I just don't understand, it's like we're being teased, cuz we love eachother so much and we're so close to eachother, but the distance is there and it's like "ha ha, you can't see eachother" FUCK you distance.
I'm hoping this gets better for us, seriously. If it gets worse and worse, I don't know what to do except fight it off. I would do anything to just be able to hold his hand. SEE his smile... not through a camera on my computer. His REAL, beautiful smile. I'd give up everything just to be in his arms, snuggled up to his chest. I can't believe how close we are and how we can talk about anything and EVERYthing... but we're being kept apart.
Babe, I know I've been stupid lately, I just... miss you and talking to you 10-20 minutes out of an entire day is just not alot, and I was at the Christmas party surrounded by couples and this one woman pissed me off so bad cuz all she was doing was putting her husband down, and all I wanted to do at that point was smack her in the face and tell her to shut up and be thankful she can see the one she loves EVERY day.
That song "Everything"... well, I was seriously trying to write you a song on guitar but I won't be able to express the way I feel better than that song already did.
I love you with ALL my heart, yesterday, now, tomorrow, ALWAYS.
